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Monday, April 14, 2008

At the Kitchen Table

Izzy is at that age when her language is growing by leaps and bounds. She's really learning to use her words well and knows a few signs that she likes to use also. Much to my dismay, she has already learned to say, "no." :) Her favorite time to use it is when we ask for kisses. She grins big and shakes her head back and forth as fast as she can telling us no! She seems to have a bit of her sister's teasing nature in her. :)

She loves to point at pictures and have you tell her what's in the picture. Sometimes it's in books, sometimes just photos around the house. Yesterday, we were at the kitchen table and she was pointing to pictures in a picture collage near the table and I was telling her who was in the pictures. She pointed to one: "that's Izzy..." then to another: "that's Izzy and Daddy." She pointed to the next: "that's Catie." Nothing unusual about this conversation so far... happens all the time. But the next thing Iz did caught me off guard. After I said, "that's Catie," she looked at me with a look very similar to this one on her face:

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She didn't say the words out loud, but her face was clearly asking, "where's Catie?" just as if she were looking for Tre' or Joey. For her that moment didn't seem significant, but for me it was. Maybe because I so long for what could have been... maybe b/c she realized that this girl Catie sure is in lots of pictures around here, so shouldn't I know her. Who knows... I'm glad she doesn't have to miss Catie like we do. I don't ever want her to have to know hurt like that. But somehow it felt good for her to be curious about her.

6 comments:

Faithful Froggers said...

Oh, Jenny, what a sweet moment with Izzy! You just never know what is going through those little minds . . . they are so much smarter than we think they are! May Catie always live in Izzy's heart, too!

Have a great week!
Love & FROG . . .

Tammy said...

Well Heather took the words right out of my mouth, what a sweet moment! I know it just broke your heart, not being able to say, "she's right here". Hugs from Fort Worth.

Dana said...

I just came in to check up on you, it's been a little while. That story about Izzie asking for Catie was so bittersweet, I'm sure. Very sweet that she recognizes Catie and is curious about her but, of course, broke your hearts all over again. Sending you big hugs! I also wanted to let you know that I'm running a 1/2 marathon for the Rally foundation Labor Day weekend, I'm excited yet nervous!!

Pam Doughty said...

You know, Jenny, Catie DID meet Izzy, even before you did. And there may even be a faint memory there for Izzy, as she wonders why her sweet sister didn't come on down with her. I believe she will always carry a piece of Catie with her...

John & Kelley said...

Like Dana, "bittersweet" is the word that came to mind when I read this post. So unbearably wrong that Izzy's big sister isn't here to interact with her, so adorably precious that Izzy is beginning to notice that she has a sister. You can bet that her curiosity will only grow and that one day you'll be sharing all the videos, photos, and stories you can tell. And then she'll ask for even more. You're the way she'll know her sweet, heroic, special sister. And you're also the way she'll feel how incredibly special she is in her own right.

--Kelley

BP said...

This story gave me chills to read. What a special time for you, bittersweet I agree.