Dear Catie Bug,
I missed you today!! I miss you every day, but today I missed you a little more than usual. I missed you when...
... I walked by the Hello Kitty store and didn't have a reason to go in and look at all the fun pens and pads and stamps and bags.
... Izzy sat on Santa's knee and kept wanting to pull his beard. I kept thinking of how you would have explained Santa to her and helped her to not be afraid of him (she did really well though -- not scared at all -- you would have been proud).
... I walked by the big girl dresses and the cute Gap sweater I would have bought for you.
... when I saw matching pjs that you and Izzy could have worn together.
... when I ate my "chicknen" biscuit with "chicknen" on it for breakfast.
... I heard Frosty the Snowman on the radio and thought of that silly snowman that sings it that you loved so much. I'll have to show that to Izzy!
... when I didn't have to try to sneak any presents into the van or figure out what bags could come in and what had to stay in the car so that you wouldn't see your gifts. (Izzy stared at one of her gifts all the way home and didn't have a clue!! You would have thought that was funny.)
... when I bought your Christmas ornament for this year... I found it at Target (a friend had told me about it). It's a really cute butterfly and all the proceeds go to fund research for kids' cancers. That seemed pretty appropriate. I wasn't sure if I should get you an ornament this year or not... decided to for sure this year (you were here for the beginning of 2007 after all), and we'll decide about next year, next year.
... I was shopping for Izzy today. You would have had fun doing that (and probably would have had me breaking the bank for your sister!!).
... when I walked past Claire's and saw all the fun make up and lip glosses and fingernail polishes that you like so much. I miss buying that stuff for you!! I'm sure Izzy will be ready for it before we know it.
I'm so thankful we had the 4 years and nearly 4 months with you that we did. What a gift!!! So... I'll try to remember that on days like today when the missing waves can be so strong!
Go slide down a rainbow and send sweet dreams to our house tonight our beautiful girl. We love you so very, very much.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Dear Catie Bug,