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Sunday, May 18, 2008

Quiet Dates

Had life gone as Tre' and I planned, we would have attended pre-k graduation Thursday night... for Catie. Instead we had a nice dinner at home, just the three of us -- Tre', Iz, and I. Had she still been here, I would have been nervous for her b/c I know how she HATED getting up in front of people... she did not like to be up front and center unless it was on her terms. If Catie were still here we would have oohed and awed about how fast she was growing up and how big she was getting and, "oh my goodness, I can't believe you're going to kindergarten next year..." Instead the day passed quietly... and that's ok. I admit to it making me miss her even more. I know that there are many more quietly significant dates for us to face without Catie... dates that would have been this or should have been that. Dates that we won't have a reason to acknowledge except as a reminder of what could have been. Definitely missed her this week.

2 comments:

threehandprints said...

Just wanted you to know this post touched me...as my middle child will finish pre K this week. You are such a strong mom and reading your blog makes me Thank God for all my Blessings...no matter how small :)

Anonymous said...

Jenny,

I think I've only posted once before (when we bought one of Caitie's Elves for Christmas this past year...my kids love Greg the Elf, by the way...and he makes special visits to our house for birthdays, so the girls are anxiously awaiting Greg's visit for their brother's b-day in June!!!) I just wanted to let you know how much I love reading your blog. I am certain that Caitie would be so proud of the way you speak of her with such admiration and love. You and Tre are wonderful parents...it is no coincidence that you have had two wonderful daughters. Izzy is adorable...how cute is her "fluffy" hair? I can say that because I had "bird hair" too when I was little! My oldest daughter (who is now 10 yrs.) is very much like Caitie was...didn't like to be the center of attention AT ALL...didn't even like when people sang Happy Birthday to her when she was really young! My middle child, Katie, who is 6, is the polar opposite of that. When she was little, she would wave to everyone waiting in the supermarket check-out lines as we were leaving the store! She's never met a stranger! Isn't it funny how two children, from the same parents, can be so totally different??!!

Anyway, what I really wanted to let you know was, that every year when I'm digging old Greg the Elf out at Christmas time AND for six birthdays (three kids, dog, husband!), I will be thinking of your sweet girl... and praying that your "mommy heart" finds peace, until you wrap your arms around sweet Caitie again.

Julie H.
Bucks County, PA